i'm back~!
haiz~ lotsa tingz 2 catch up on... dunno where 2 start...
been so busy those last few dayz...
diz mornin go sch den realise no lecture... haha... nao xiao hua...
haiz~ dunno wad happen 2 luanluan... troubled over sth... but refuse 2 open up...
wanna help out... den dunno how... how come luanluan dusn't understand even if i scold her or wad... juz wanna gif the best 4 her mahz...
hehe... ya lah... sometimez got selfish aims... hehe... but nv hai her one loz...
now me reali very confused... haiz~
qm kena hit by some gal he noe from irc... lolz... soundz like such a long time ago life...
been very lonely... no1 2 turn 2... no1 sms me... call me... barely any fwenz... almost no1 go out wif...
hehe... but i'll nv turn back 2 my old life anymore... if diz is the way tingz r 2 be... juz bravely accept it... life's like bowling...
take care every1... myself too~...
LurVebEiNgwiFu
11:49 pm
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Tuesday, June 10, 2003
show me the meaning... of being lonely...
is diz the feelin'... i need 2 walk wif...?
life's such a blur... haven been so sensitive 4 half a yr... suddenly all the nitemares r coming back...
i dun even noe wad i'm doin'...
haiz~ diz dream has dragged 4 far too long...
"there's sth missing in my heart..."
reali wish by tmr i'll haf snapped out of all diz... ptless... & plain stupid of me...
LurVebEiNgwiFu
11:51 pm
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i'm sorry... i nv meant 2 be n irritating person... nv meant 4 tingz 2 turn out diz way...
i noe i'm all flaws & no strengths... i ain't even fit 2 talk abt wad happened...
i guess i'm reali extreme @ timez... but tingz haf reali changed...
: )
if u r who u r... u'll noe...
live ur life 2 the fullest... smile more... & may life be a bed of roses 4 u...
i'm sorry... i'll alwayz remember the 'bao-baos'... & everyting else gd dat came out of it...
: ) goodnite...
"Though I know it shdn’t matter anymore, I still wish to know if u ONCE loved me…"
LurVebEiNgwiFu
12:05 am
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Monday, June 09, 2003
hhmm~
2day got lortsa tingz 2 do...
haiz~
decided 2 gif up on the ting liao... shall not pursue wadz impossible... anywayz itz too late 2 do aniting...
so... 2day maybe going bowling... buy stuff... darnoez...
c how lahz
last nite couldn't access the server... dunno y... s0o... lotsa tingz din put down in words... :(
nvm lahz... itz over liaoz...
hmmzzz~ everyting'z changing...
LurVebEiNgwiFu
10:04 am
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Sunday, June 08, 2003
whoO~!
juz reached home a while ago...
played pool last nite till nearly 3...
lolz... den c the sea... very very sad...
decided dat shall bring my next gf 2 east coast beach @ nite 2 watch everyting...
dat is... if any1 ever wans me again... hhmm~...
quite fun lah... play daidee till back ache...
but still... u noe... haiz~
ok... go catch some slp le...
;)
LurVebEiNgwiFu
10:03 am
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Saturday, June 07, 2003
cudn't slp last nite...
dunno y... very frustrated feeling... hot & flustered all over... hmm~~
kept tinking abt sth...
& the msg luan sent b4... i still haf it...
LurVebEiNgwiFu
1:25 pm
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2day so f-...
haiz~
went out wif luan... go bowl & makan...
she was quite quiet 2day... hmmzzz...?
haiz~
juz realised sth liaoz... datz y a bit sad now...
but nvm...
Although the sun will never shine e same, I’ll always look to a better day...
“All my life I was afraid that I would never find love… and now that I’ve found it, I’m afraid that I’ll lose it”
LurVebEiNgwiFu
12:00 am
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Wednesday, June 04, 2003
sianzzz~
haiz~ tmr got test again...
gonna do sth i haven done in a long long time... STUDY!!!
but look @ the time... i'm dead tired... tak boleh tahan...
2day play daidee won most of the games...
but chess lost most of it... hee~ *blush blush*
daryl says got 180-plus 4 bowling... hhmm
going wif him on fri... drive my inspirations... haha~
LurVebEiNgwiFu
11:00 pm
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Tuesday, June 03, 2003
hhmmzzz~
ding dong! i'm back~!!!
luan sms me... hhmm... ;) & xuanz busily studyin' 4 review exam tingy...
oh well~
went ard neighbourhood wif lisa (me BEZ FREN~!) juz now... after playing chess @ mc after sch...
hehe... hope nv kena sars... lisa fren tio hi-fever...
boring day... all the lessons dun understand...
hee~ go play canon liaoz...
oh yah... was talking 2 me kor~ hehe... hol coming...
diz time go out wif him maybe can c his gf... he say till so gd...
i miss bowling... very much... still wan my 200-pts & champ...
& of coz... ya noe...
LurVebEiNgwiFu
11:31 pm
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Sunday, June 01, 2003
hee~!
2day was alright... but 2nite quite happi~!
created a new blog... 4 my secrets~! lol... therefore diz site is officially made public 2 mins from now... not dat many ppl'll read tho...
hehez~
catch up later!
LurVebEiNgwiFu
10:44 pm
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