Friday, February 25, 2005
i juz saw her online.
after so many weeks... but she was reali... reali... cold.
every reply was like... 1 sentence? & ended wif a full stop.
i dunno is it wad dat ass of a bf did or is it reali like my fren said... i was juz being manipulated 2 buy dat bear?
i'm reali reali feeling terrible... i can't believe dat my wait 4 weeks has come 2 nought... no... not nought... negative...
she din even reply my msg after she said 'going offline soon'... & she din even say bye... absolutely nth after dat...
i din even msg her anyting after vday... & all i said on vday was happy vday... she ain't supposed 2 mind dat right? she told me can buy prezzies 4 a fren on vday also wad...
'hi.'
'lazy 2 come online ma.'
'no la. juz a little tired.'
haiz~... wad did i do?
wad did he do?
wad did she do?
so many qns... no chance 4 answers...
is there n insurance 4 a love so true...?
wad shd i do from here............. *very very unhappy*
LurVebEiNgwiFu
11:48 pm
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Thursday, February 24, 2005
i'm reali worried abt her... haiz~
itz been more dan a week & there ain't any news of her...
wadz the matter? haiz~
i dun even dare sms her... i dun wan become a nuisance of sorts...
but... i'm scared if sth happened 2 her...
i'll @ MOST wait another week.
dun tink i can bear it any longer.
nuisance or not... i gotta make sure dat shez alright.
LurVebEiNgwiFu
12:54 am
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昨日在冲凉时... 不知为何突然想到了个人生的至理... 该是想起小说中所提的吴三桂吧... 只能说是想到了... 并非领悟...
地球禁不起宇宙内其他事物的袭击 却更禁受不了地球上人类的摧毁
国家再强盛亦不可招惹别国 却更受不起国民起义或出卖
友情虽怕人言之可畏 却更怕挚友间的冲突磨擦
本人虽怕别人的暗算 但最大的敌人 终究还是自己
LurVebEiNgwiFu
12:34 am
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Monday, February 21, 2005
wah liewz.
was supposed 2 go wif norvin 2 dblo 2nite 4 some nbs bash...
sounded very promising... organised by sufen & her frenz one...
den he fell sick.
wtf... & my fren in nbs ain't even aware of it.
siao liaoz... now can't go c her le... *sawbz sawbz*
haiz~ dun tink my LS readz my blog... even tho she asked 4 the url so many timez den...
how i miss the days of chatting... itz been reali long time...
wonder wadz happened 2 her... haiz~
LurVebEiNgwiFu
8:54 pm
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Friday, February 18, 2005
i juz found out sth reali reali horrible...
itz making me reali reali angry..
& i'm in a reali reali bad mood.
LurVebEiNgwiFu
10:55 pm
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Sunday, February 13, 2005
created so many routines recently... i'm getting reali confused by my own arrays of creations.
i guess wad she said reali sparked off my magical craze again...
won @ blackjack 2nite... hahaz~
wanted 2 go there again 2day... but decided against it...
dun wanna cause any misunderstandingz or wad... haiz~ muz always bear in mind... who m i... wadz my status...
tmr vday le... spending it alone... in camp...?
haiz~ hope she'll haf n enjoyable valentine's day... tho working...
haf a wonderful vday every1...
LurVebEiNgwiFu
11:19 pm
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Saturday, February 12, 2005
still haven got anyting yet...
haiz~
juz now went 2 my s1's hse... juz got back... played mj & won quite a bit... & every1 seems 2 love magic~!
but i remembered dat she went out wif him 2day... den very sianz liaoz... haiz~
hope the bzness does well...
LurVebEiNgwiFu
3:05 am
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Thursday, February 10, 2005
i dreamt of her. last nite.
itz the 1st time i dreamt of her... dreamt dat i was looking all ard the area 4 her... altho s far s i remember i cudn't find her... nvtheless... i dreamt of her.
till now... therez still no reply... suspect the msg got lost in the server... but who noes...?
风卷残云花叶落 水流不断人断肠
LurVebEiNgwiFu
11:49 am
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Wednesday, February 09, 2005
no reply again...
haiz~
LurVebEiNgwiFu
10:46 am
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Tuesday, February 08, 2005
dunno y... after speaking... feelz so tranquil... so serene...
i'm juz all smilez... & all the unhappiness worries upsets & even the melancholies suddenly seemed so worth it.
but shez still very much smitten wif him... seems even more dan ever...
haiz~ lucky chap...~!
LurVebEiNgwiFu
1:54 pm
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the martin a nash dvd sux... i feel
the sanvert dvds r gd tho... better dan i expected... but lennart green's better... definitely...
& i'm absolutely the happiest man alive! (probably women even!) i'm serious!
@ LAST! i've been anticipating 4 a week... i've finally deng dao le!
LurVebEiNgwiFu
1:20 am
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Monday, February 07, 2005
wow.
itz juz awesome.
i juz got my sanvert dvds & in addition got a martin a nash card sharping routine video...!
color fusion came too... but my symphony of the rings & rose magic & floating rose haven arrived... been so long... reali looking 4ward 2 it...
been trying not 2 tink abt it...
but i can blind myself... shut my mind... manipulate my thots... but 4 how long can i cover the hideous scars from the heart-tearing blows fate has dealt me time & again?
君不见黄河之水天上来 奔流到海不复回
君不见高堂明镜悲白发 朝如青丝暮成雪
LurVebEiNgwiFu
10:18 pm
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Sunday, February 06, 2005
can't find any rose liaoz... nth like the 1 i used 4 the prezzie...
in a reali bad mood... very... very... very... vexed...
LurVebEiNgwiFu
1:55 am
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Saturday, February 05, 2005
唉
每过一分钟 = 告别了一分钟的希望
每过一日 = 过了二十四小时的失望
LurVebEiNgwiFu
1:30 pm
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itz done! itz done!
after a week of planning... weekends of shopping... weekday nites of going outta camp 2 search 4 materials... pens & roses sacrificed... getting my hands all roughed by super glue (still can't wash 'em off!)... lotsa nites put into fixing it touching up & calculating... itz done!
i wish 2 thank my dad my mum my LS my blah blah blah...
haha... itz done!
LurVebEiNgwiFu
1:43 am
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Friday, February 04, 2005
itz finally almost finished.
i'm left wif juz the last step...
4 it... i stripped my very impt props 4 1 of the most visual tricks i do...
& itz the best of itz kind.
hope it'll be perfect enuf... itz a lame idea ya... but... a lot was put into it...
& finally changed the hokkien song dat caused so much commotion... lolz...
happy chinese new yr every1...
LurVebEiNgwiFu
11:03 pm
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Thursday, February 03, 2005
finally got an idea!
chanced upon some optic fibres... @ least datz wad i tink they are...
& i shall use 'em 2 create sth else... hope it'll look gd...
i've only got the blueprint in my mind...
shall go buy the materials needed tmr... work on fri...
juz 2 squeeze out diz idea... i've destroyed 2 pens & a very precious paper rose in the process of working out the different inspirations... reali wish it'll work...
&... 终于还是未等着... 何时方能问得那关系重大的问题...?
LurVebEiNgwiFu
1:37 am
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Wednesday, February 02, 2005
waited till 2 am plus last nite...
dunno wad time i'll hafta wait till 2nite...
is there no end 2 diz waiting...? hope not...
LurVebEiNgwiFu
8:10 pm
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hez so lucky... i hope he noes it... & does sth abt it.
juz wanna c her smiling...
been trying very hard 2 produce sth...
& yeah... teddies... cushions... any1? DESPERATE 4 a ferrero roche?
没有起伏的情绪 因为你出现后划破平静 震撼我已经封闭的心 冰山和雪在溶解
回到初次的相遇 风在吹一个人独自美丽 灰的天空为何没有表情 你的心像雨
就让我爱你 没有了自己
残破的光影 黑暗中深深吸引 绝对地 就算生命所剩无几
只要拥抱瞬间的默契
就让我爱你 证明有奇迹
再狂野的心 灵魂的深处有你 我愿意 放弃世界微笑而去
幸福很远心却在一起
过去总是挥不去 再坚强记忆仍像恶梦不醒 我的泪水淌过你的天空 雨下不停 心好痛
风像画笔 看著我 你的容颜尽在风的前头
我的心划出第一次的彩虹
因为你 我相信
下一个世纪 让我爱你
LurVebEiNgwiFu
1:18 am
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