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Name: stan
Age: 21
Education: struggling thru uni
Location: sG
Interests: magic & music
Dislikes: anything awful
Likes: everyting else
Status: sIngLe... beEn sO 4 rEaLi lOnG



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Thursday, March 31, 2005


talked 2 my lucky star again...
but she sounded pretty unhappy & worried abt her relationship...
i actuali advised heR~!
m i a real fool or wad...? haiz~
i told her if she'z @ ease wif her bf... he's the man 4 her.
she said yes... & den i told her not 2 worry~!

haiz~... feel so depressed now... but wadeva larhz... juz wanna my lucky star be smiling luffing & behaving her sweet self 4ever.

all the best my lucky star... *
love ya lotz... tho u'll nv noe...



LurVebEiNgwiFu
11:45 pm

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Tuesday, March 29, 2005


talked 2 my lucky star~!!! ***!
i'm SO SO SO lucky... feeling on top of the world siahz.
altho @ the end... she addressed me s 'fren'... dunno is deliberately or wad. but anywayz i decided not 2 be too sensitive.
i'm feelin' so LUCKY! & she sounded so farni... shez in a gd mood... datz y so m i!
but haiz~... she sounded pretty exhausted too.
i'm quite worried abt her... scared she got insufficient rest whilst toiling thru the wk...
hope she can take care of herself. (tho... of coz... i'd take dat job anytime!)

my lucky star ROCKS~! ***
i simply LOVE my lucky star!
YAY~! lalalaz...



LurVebEiNgwiFu
12:34 am

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Sunday, March 27, 2005


played pool like mad diz wkend. SHIOK.
thur - wif wenjuan liming & mack
fri - wif a whole group of 'em

but yest (sat) i tink liming went mad.
haiz~ he asked me hu i like. wtf... i crapped ard 2 avoid the qn & den... he du lan.
i mean... diz kinda ting how 2 say like dat siahz... & itz personal wadz.
i haf every right & the freedom 2 keep it 2 myself until i'm comfortable 2 reveal it.
no reason 4 ANY1... i mean ANY1. (except, of coz... HER) 2 try 2 force it out of me right? itz juz illogical.
but i still dun wanna lose a fren larhz... HAIZ~

& i haven heard from her 4 a long long time.
been grabbing EVERY opportunity 2 c her.
end up seeing all of her frenz (whom i also haven seen 4 a long time so datz still pretty shiok) but juz not her.
haiz~ i'd do anyting 4 her... ANYTING. all she has 2 do is juz say it.



LurVebEiNgwiFu
10:09 am

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Saturday, March 19, 2005


marina sq. superbowl sux...~!

1 dollar per game... dirt cheap...
but my highest score was only 116.
heard dat even the national bowlers could barely hit past 100.

it reali sux.

& i saw diz guy on the bus home. he's got reali nice hair... damn.
suddenly felt so sorry 4 myself...
wish i cud juz haf hair like dat...
haiz~ but 4 a whole 19 yrs... therez nv been a chance...
calie's on leave... until 2 weeks later... i'll rush down 2 her salon 1st ting.
i noe... i seem like a fucking metrosexual. but i'm not.



LurVebEiNgwiFu
11:05 pm

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Sunday, March 13, 2005


YOU r the thief who stole MY heart.
& YOU r the supposedly tired marathon runner in MY mind.

but did u ever noe dat...?

i reali wish i cud talk 2 u more. get 2 noe more abt u.
but u r juz there... running... & running... & running. r u reali tired?

u seem so near... i've reached out my hand.

all i lack is grasping urs.



LurVebEiNgwiFu
11:12 pm

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hai~!
i stayed home the whole of 2day... a SUNDAY~!
waited the whole day patiently... but failed 2 c her come.
got my micro completely revved up & going liaoz... but diz iz reali sianz.

seems like each day is juz so meaningless w/o my lucky star ard. so dat @ least i noe shez safe & not hurt by dat ass of a jerk.

aw shucks. i reali regret going bowling last nite.



LurVebEiNgwiFu
10:47 pm

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i tink i juz mizzed her last nite... ARGH~!

i tink she was online...
i was home after 5... the entire evening... but she wasn't here...
tink she came sometime after 9 or 10... JUZ WHEN I WENT BOWLING!
shit... i shdn't haf gone~!

oh... & i found out her scores le... in running order.

haiz~... i'm up so early even tho i slept @ 430... juz 2 try 2 catch her online.
damn... now i reali not very sure if she'll be here... haiz... plz plz come.



LurVebEiNgwiFu
10:52 am

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Saturday, March 12, 2005


i'm so broke.

spent my diz month's pay completely... yesterday.
bought a zen micro... & a quiksilver polo dat i saw on the net...

i ran all over the place... pacific plaza... citylink... wisma... paragon... b4 finally finding the last piece in heeren... & it was a large... wee bit too big 4 me

but wtf... who cares.

did so much diz week... so much dat i can't remember everyting...

oh ya... watched howl's moving castle on monday... not bad...
wanna watch son of the mask lehz... hopefully can jio dao some1 go wif me.



LurVebEiNgwiFu
8:39 pm

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Sunday, March 06, 2005


i juz talked 2 her again...
found out dat her results weren't s gd s she wanted them 2 be...
but still... i dun tink it'd be a problem 4 her bahz...
shez working now... & she seemz fine wif me... i'm sooo glad...
hope she getz into ntu... reali...
i'd love 2 see her everyday... how nice life wud be...
tink i'd stay in from monday 2 thursday...
lolz... *dreamily fantasising*

mizz her so much... dun tink she noes...
but... wish her all the best ba...
i 默默地支持 her bahz...



LurVebEiNgwiFu
1:03 pm

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