Saturday, December 31, 2005
itz all spoilt. again.
i FINALLY managed 2 convince her 2 go out wif mi yest... 2 spend the new yr 2gether.
how sweet right... if i could juz pass the stroke of midnite into 2006 wif her...
she agreed! my plans was originally 4 esplanade.. but due 2 some unwelcome forms of disturbances dat many ppl mentioned mite occur.. we changed plans.. DAMN! but no bother... there're always alternatives right?
diz morning i saw her on msn... spoke 2 her.. & she told me shez not feeling well..
after a while she din reply me anymore.. i was expecting her 2 tell me she wun be meeting me.
sure enuf.. shez juz msg-ed me.. shez not feeling well. wun be meeting me.
how i wish i can spend new yr wif her.. be it mahjong or wadsoeva...
i guess diz yr i'll haf 2 spend new yr on my own again.. reali no mood 2 celebrate le w/o her.. esp since she claims shez ill.. haiz~
life's so full of ups & downs.. i dunno if diz mite very well be the last chance i get 2 c her b4 she flies 2 aus.. there're some tingz i din tell her..
i noe she'll nv read diz blog.. she probably dusn't even noe it exists.
i dun dare say i love her in her presence... but here i can express all my concern & love..
& i'm reali disappointed & saddened... like she says.. i've no mood 2 do anyting le..
LurVebEiNgwiFu
3:00 pm
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Thursday, December 29, 2005
she was msg-ing me so nicely 2day...
until she asked me y tai tai image no gd..
when i replied it din fit her coz she young & sweet whereas tai tai stuff is 4 the old showoffs.. she din reply 4 like.. 3 hrs?
i got a bit scared... den she replied saying she tired so lazy 2 reply.. tiao~!
i said nvm.. tried 2 confirm sat's time wif her budden she din reply after abt 10 mins..
in the end i msg-ed her saying dun bother juz go rest lor...
haiz~ dunno wadz wrong also.. like there like not there lehz...
tsk tsk~ oh ya my ellusionist big bundle came in 2day... 1 of the biggest bundles i ever seen..
& the BLACK GHOST DECK came!!! hahaz~ looks pretty cool in the bolted case...~
LurVebEiNgwiFu
11:10 pm
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so happy 2day!
she msged me abt my opinions on a phone while i was aslp! hahaz~ luckily i got woken by the fogging of mosquitoes & went 2 check it out on the net...
in the end we msged so much & finally i went 2 mit her 2 buy the phone tgt...! nokia 7370~!!!
lol... i'm so so so happy! & she got me a bday prezzie! beat dat! the 1st time she ever got me 1!
hahaz~ but she hasn't been replying me since 9.30... probably charging her phone or sth... still..
i'm so glad she asked me!
36 days to the day... haiz~
LurVebEiNgwiFu
12:12 am
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Wednesday, December 28, 2005
i juz came back from thailand..
got her a wallet.. black ferragamo.. i hope she likes it.
she msged me happy burfday on my bday lehz~!
she mentioned i was a great fren... & i replied thanx.. (the happy burfday) & also 4 being the most wonderful person i ever knew... den she din reply liaoz...
i damn sian... tink of her flying off in feb.
can u imagine... i've got barely more dan a month 2 spend wif her b4 she flies 2 aus... 1 month.. datz so short! haiz~
notice the bad english? i'm seriously very very sian-ed... haiz~
LurVebEiNgwiFu
12:14 am
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Friday, December 23, 2005
haha... i'm so lucky!
i saw her on msn yest. & mentioned dat i was playing mahjong... she said she wanted 2 join in.. of coz i was more dan happy 2 agree.. lolz
she came @ nite & ended up playing the whole nite till 7 plus b4 i sent her home in the cab again.. lotsa fun wif her esp the part where we actuali shared our money...
but she mentioned some tingz... she can't wait 2 go 2 aus now! arghz... been hoping & wishing dat she mite somehow decide 2 stay... but wad the..
& therez diz chap who sends her 2 work everyday... i mean... how lucky dat is...!
hope 2 c her again next week 2 watch movie or play mj...! & merry x'mas 2 her... i'll definitely miss her in thailand...
LurVebEiNgwiFu
8:13 am
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Monday, December 12, 2005
OMG.
was i dreaming or wad..?
she called me. YES!
i was buying diz belt @ wisma when my phone rang. Not exactly very willing 2 "flaunt" my old ancient 8310 in public.. i lifted it out gingerly &.. her name was displayed on the screen..!
almoz unable 2 believe.. i answered the call & she told me sth very strange &.. actuali quite dumb.. dat happened 2 her. but all dat aside.. she called me!!! how wonderful dat is.. the week seemz so enjoyable suddenly..!
lalala~ in a fantastic mood now..~
she reali makes my day... & 2 her..
girl, if u're reading diz.. i juz wan u 2 noe dat i'm reali reali happy u called.. no matter wad the topic is abt.. & my greatest wish now is 2 be able 2 see u.. talk 2 u.. every day..
i hope the matter will be resolved soon k.. & i wish & wish & wish dat my birthday wish will come true..
LurVebEiNgwiFu
8:42 pm
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Thursday, December 01, 2005
shez been very very cold 2 me since last tue.
i haven the faintest idea y.
according 2 the previous entry.. i reali enjoyed my evening out wif her.. & she was still fine when i msged her after she got home.
den when i msg her last tue.. she said she was too busy 2 reply. nvm den.. i said okie graciously...
on sat.. it was her bday.. i msg her happy bday... no reply.
in dat afternoon i finally asked her if she got it... she sounded reali cold & ignored my msg when i asked her if she was meeting her best fren.
2day i asked if i cud c her on sat... 2 gif her the prezzies.. she said she was working.
when i asked if she was working till 12.. she ignored me.. AGAIN. & even after n hr when i asked if she got my reply.. she din msg back a ting... even up till now.
i tink back & i seriously dun recall hafing done anyting 2 offend her.
in fact.. i've put in a tremendous amt of effort in her gifts...
if she wans 2 stay away from me.. i wudn't say a 2nd word if she told me.. or some other kind of frenly approach.
but ignore me? i'm reali deeply hurt.. she may not care but i can almost hear my prepared gifts crying 4 me...
so much effort.. reaped no rewards. all i get back in return is a load of outbox msgs... none in the inbox.
i wish she'd juz let me noe y.. all i ask is tell mi where the fault lies.
你的心到底在想些什么 为什么留下这个结局让我承受
最爱你的人是我 你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候 没有说一句话就走
最爱你的人是我 你怎么舍得我难过
为你付出了这么多 你却没有感动过
LurVebEiNgwiFu
9:59 pm
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