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Name: stan
Age: 21
Education: struggling thru uni
Location: sG
Interests: magic & music
Dislikes: anything awful
Likes: everyting else
Status: sIngLe... beEn sO 4 rEaLi lOnG


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Tuesday, January 10, 2006

i juz dreamt of her earlier diz morning. 1st time i ever dreamt of her..

i dreamt she hinted.. quite openly tho.. dat she knew i liked her..
seeing no signs of objection.. obviously i popped the most impt qn 2 her & she agreed..

how sweet.. we ended up talking & laughing all the way back 2 my hse..
i was going 2 brush my teeth (s usual) & den..

i woke up. how disappointed i was.



 LurVebEiNgwiFu
10:25 am

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Saturday, January 07, 2006

since dat day she said she cudn't mit me... i've called her once on sat nite.. once on sun afternoon.. sms-ed her once after the sunday call.. which she replied she was unable 2 pick up calls coz shez reading.. den i called sms-ed on tue morning.. thut morning & den called in thur evening.

after dat sunday sms.. therez been no reply @ all. which makes a grand total of only 1 reply in a week. yes.

i'm not trying 2 attitude or wad.. all i asked was if she felt better. fine.. if u're ill & u're too sian 2 reply.

i saw her on msn diz morning. no reply.

i stayed online 4 n hr. she finally logged off when i was hafing lunch. without a reply.

i dunno 4 wad reason shez been ignoring me. but i din expect her 2. i wasn't being a nuisance by sms-ing bo liao stuff everyday. i only asked out of concern 1ce every 2 days..!

i din noe she'd react like diz.. or rather.. din even react.

i'm so deeply hurt by her attitude dat i feel so numb now. can't bliv i'm actuali shed a few tears.. din even do dat 4 my lucky star.

but oh well. fine. if diz is the way u wan tingz 2 be den fine.

GO SCREW URSELF..! i wun bother u anymore. i'll get out of ur life if datz wad u're trying 2 tell me.. silently. but anyway.. take care...

i dun suppose i'll ever be able 2 c u again.



 LurVebEiNgwiFu
11:32 am

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